Author: Maverick Wings

“how are you spending your night?”
I know you have been through a fight,
Don’t worry everything will be alright,
Darkness always ends with a bright light,
It’s been long I have been spoken to you,
Yes, I m still sad there’s nothing new,
I know you found someone new,
You have moved on there’s nothing new,

This time there’s no reason for a fight,
I m not there so I hope you got a bed light,
Recently I saw you with your bestie,
I m happy that you are with him lastly,
Remember I got you cute little teddy,
Saw your new look you looked pretty,
It looks like the break up has gone well for you,
I m happy that you are well after the things we been through,

You were always worried as I smoked so much,
But now I’m with the pill’s soft touch,
You told your friends that I was controllin’,.
I get it me and friends were little annoying,
Don’t worry you were always right,
I was the one always creating the fights,
You were right you never needed me,
I need you it’s freaking always me,

I need you it’s freaking always me,
©lucidious_lucifer

The long week ended it was the Saturday night,
I was sitting in a bar sipping budlight,
was just enjoying the low music,
Felt my life was just like six faced Rubik’s,
You with your black dress came and sat near me,
And called the bar tender and ordered a bloody Mary,
I asked you for a dance and didn’t asked romance,
You danced with me for a while but things change with; circumstance,
Next thing I remember, I woke up on my bed ,
“Please forget about the last night” the note I read,
You were gone I didn’t cared went back to sleep it’s a holiday,
Door bangs, police arrests me and took me away,
Wham! Got punched in my face by the cop,
I was charged for rape got beaten non stop,
Ok I got bailed, I went back checked the T.V.,
You were giving interviews that you got raped, you faked it completely,

Ok let’s talk about the stuff that I have never talked about,
You have got a husband cheated him so now you regret about,
Got caught cheating, so you wanna be in clean chit,
So you pushed me in this false accusation of deep shit,
Now see my mom, dad hiding their face around,
I jumped over a bridge and got drowned,
Cuz I couldn’t handle the shame around,
But you were happy that your character is clean around,

You call yourself a feminist I guarantee,
That’s the problem of the woman of this country,
You always wanna talk about things girls go go through,
You want equal rights, still want special treatments although,
You demand equal rights,
Then you get the special treatment to frame some innocent guy’s,

What about the girls locker room no one talked about it,
The girl false accusing Manav Singh nobody talked about it,
When girls get molested every one demands for justice,
Young Manav killed himself he is just a boy no one cares for the justice,

Yes, I respect woman I m no anti- feminist,
I m just a anti pseudo feminist,
Our mothers, our teachers should demand equal rights,
Still they work hard, to get what they deserve and they get the equal rights,

Not you pseudo feminists,
Cuz you just know how to take benefits,
©lucidious_lucifer

Let me begin this story in the correct way,
My girl left me It was just the same day,
I called my ex,
She replied me in text,
She asked “what’s up dude?”
M sorry I called u m out mah mood,
What happened did ur girl left u?
She cheated me I just wanted to call u,
U deserved that m sorry for u,
M sorry I don’t wanna be rude,
R u ok? Let me pick u up u seems so drunk,
She came in my room I was still drinking my old monk,
She sat down she looked at me,
I knew she didn’t wanted to talk to me,
She asked what did happened to u?,
How can this ever happen to u,
Remember the time u cheated me for the same girl,
But Its ok I think there is a lesson u should’ve learnt,
I burst in tears held her palms I said m sorry,
She said it’s ok I moved on a there’s no guilt to carry,
We went out for a cup of coffee,
She heard me and just stood by me,
I accidentally touched her hand while we were crossing road,
She shivered up I forgot the ex code,
After the cup of coffee she dropped me back to my room,
Before leaving all my body she sprayed perfume,
Take a bath u smell like a homeless guy,
She left holding my cheek and saying me goodbye
All night I was crying holding my girl’s photo,
I wanted her back in my life she cheated although,
I punched a whole in the wall,
It was not the rage it was my pain that went through the wall,
It past midnight I called my girl,
This number is talking someelse I heard
I broke the bottle of rum in the rage,
A sharp piece pierced my arm,
Just the way my girl pierced my heart,
But maybe she was the girl with stone heart,
I called my ex but she wasn’t buzy with someone else,
She calmed me down and said u loved her that’s only matters,
Next day she visited me,
We went out for a movie,
Ya going on a movie with ur ex is something wrong ironically,
But nothing went wrong when I watched that movie,
Yes, I smoked her and threw her like cigratte  before,
But I wanted to be something better than before,
I didn’t wanted her to tie to me in a relation,
Being a good friend with some affection,
I know m not the best guy to make friends with,
But still she trusted me even with my filthy,
The movie ended,
It was a like things between us a little amended,
She dropped me back after the movie,
She said goodbye to me,
Suddenly i bended over and kissed her on her cheek,
She smiled and her smile was just unique,
Don’t worry m always there for u, she whispered and left,
I smiled and closed the door and sat near the head rest,

Yes I still remember my girl and I miss her,
Yes, maybe I was her romeio and she my Juliet,
But time brought my ex and me in the same place,
And she bacame my Hazel and I became her Augustus,

It’s just the same as fault in our Stars…

By the day I m a Braniac,
By the night I m an insomniac,
Does it mean I don’t get enough sleep, No I m a maniac,
Do you know what it leads to become an insomniac,
Late nights remembering the girl who left you,
Still left me after all things I have been through,

Midnight smoking the cigarette under the night sky,
Wish she could get it how much hurts a goodbye,
Writing about her again and again makes me maniac
Sleepless nights always brings the flashback,

Walking in my room alone all mid night ,
Where I used to sleep after kissing her goodnight,
It’s mid night still couldn’t get sleep all night,
Took out a bottle of Scotch that helps me write,
I m just sociopath who felt the love for the first time,
Writing these lines makes me even sad it’s like nothing I can rhyme,

Maybe now she is with someone having her sweet time,
I don’t blame her our fight was my crime,
It’s past midnight but everyone busy with their special someone,
But I m sipping alone the scotch just my pen and no one,
These sleepless nights are torturing me to my death,
I took my Prozac pills and thought If I could get an easy death,

It’s now early morning
and the birds chirping,
Took a long breath and closed my notebook,
Put on my headphones listening to my favorite hook,
Put my rest of the scotch aside,
Cuz I will need it again for the next night,
©lucidious_lucifer

Sitting alone in my bathtub, Holding my old man’s Glock,
My clothes still on, the sound of the ticking clock,
Staring at the scars on my arms,
Wanna shoot my brain out with the fire arm,
Took my dad’s bottle of throat burning whiskey,
Took few glasses of it as the job was bit risky,
Took few more cartridges from the night stand,
It was the prom night, I had no date cuz I was from retard land,

Took my rusty car dragged it to the school parking,
Went through the security the dog still barking,
Every one grooving on the slow beats the DJ playing,
Went to the senior washroom, place where I used to get the beating,
Closed the door behind took the Glock the bullets loading,
Thought the children were worse deserved it for bullying,
Darkness is my old friend nothings new for me,
Saw a girl getting hooked in the restroom with my bully,
Knocked the door he opened it grabbed me by throat,
I was all blue getting chocked,

Shot him in the chest he fell on the floor,
Shot again and again I wanted nothing more,
Changed the magazine again ready to pull the trigger,
Went out started shooting in the prom nothing to figure,
People shouting ,
People crying,
People running here and there,
I was shooting with no fear,

Being a book warm was it my fault,
Being beaten daily there’s no way I could have dealt,
Cop’s inside my dad in the front in the uniform aiming towards me,
Shouted to get on my knee,
Was shocked to see his son with his own gun,
But i knew it was vain to run,

Tried shooting one more kid,
My dad shooted the bullet hit,
I was on the floor bleeding,
Could see my life fleeing,
It was just the time I admit it,
I was just a fallen Maverick,

It’s 8:00 pm and he just walked in through the door,
His uniform all sweaty which he wore,
He took sip  of the water which he pour,
His day wasn’t finished there was so much more,
Went to the bedroom gave his kid a good night kiss,
His friends having a party in a bar he missed,
Looked at a night stand with a project list,
His wife with dinner on the table all pissed,
“Our kid again failed maths exam did you cared?”
“Serving the country but your son in a deep shit did you cared?”
Left the dinner started to make his son’s projects,
He felt blissed to have a family had no regrets,
It’s 2:00 am still his day not ended,
Began to do his office work, everything was fine he pretended,
He was not just man, he was a super hero, more than a superman he is a real life hero,
Serving his family and country, all day and night,
So much pressure and anger still always polite,

Time passes and it’s a decade after,
He is sitting on his arm chair  alone and sadder,
His son is in college away from his own father,
His alone, sick and tired would die rather,
Wife all sick bed ridden everything was changing he wasn’t ready,
He wanted to see his son get his degree,
There was nothing left in his life anymore,
He was a lion who just lost his roar,
He was not just a simple dad,
He was his country’s comrade,
Wish the family could have realized,
How he have always compromised,
Tear rolled down his eyes,
As his life in front of him flashes,

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-Edgar Allan Poe