Author: Maverick Wings

I know you hate me more than any one can,
But you are the only love of my whole lifespan,
We fought for stuffs which we should have never had,
I know you cried because of the feelings you had,
Please forgive me, my feelings for you still strangled me,
Remember how we used to travel and love so carefree,
I said few things, you did too let it go,
We are one, we are together no one here is a foe,

You owe me the love I gave you,
You owe me as I cared for you,
You owe my heart that still beats for you,
I know I owe you an apology to push you,

The nights we spent under the beautiful dark sky,
I know you feel the same you can’t deny,
A sociopath never loves but I did,
It’s like waking up a man from dead,
Please comeback as the darkness eats me,
Help me I don’t know who curses me,
Hold my hand and help me survive,
I m stabbed down but your love can still revive,

You owe me the love I gave you,
You owe me as I cared for you,
You owe my heart that still beats for you,
I know I owe you an apology to push you,
I owe an apology cuz I left you when I should be with you,

I pledged to ride till I die,
I m just a monster, no more deny,
Riding my stallion till the end of the horizon,
Carry a bottle of oak barrelled whiskey and my gun,
Left all of my acquaintances behind,
Cuz my true nature is coming out it’s very hard to hide,
My touch to their life destroying them,
I don`t belong here, should be residing in some demon realm,

The afternoon sun burns the skin, dries my lips,
Whiskey down my throat quenches my thirst and eases my trip,
Theres a fire inside me, consuming me from the flames of guilt, I feel alone but my true nature is hard to resist, Crossing towns after towns but cant find what I m searching for,
It’s not a ride for fun, nor a ride to explore,
Several months’ passed still searching for peace,
Can`t find in churches, nor while confessing to any priest,

The sky darkens and the horse slows down a little,
I got it my stallion needs to take rest, Damn! I feel like Dolittle,
Took a walk in the desert keeping my holster on the horse back,
Theres no one around, on wild animals to attack, A scorpion crawls out of the sand, I held the little creature in my hand, He stung me, but I didnt felt anything,
But the scorpion still trying to get his freedom but I enjoyed the feeling,
I know I sound like a freaking psychopath,
But the scorpion died in with my rough grab,
I turned over and saw my stallions eyes burning,
And he breathes fire and feels like he is roaring,
My skin caught fire but felt nothing,
It was hard to understand what I was becoming,
It feels like I m the cursed marked son Cain,
I m the devil I was searching peace in vain,
Cuz till eternity I will always deserve Pain

I see the night as it darkens,
Raining blood all over in darkness,
I can’t escape this doom,
It feels I m stuck in a hell escape room,
My skin burns as I try to survive,
It’s just my life nothing feels alive,
Not a simple human I m a curse Bearer,
I can see my demons in the mirror,

Feels like getting mutilated inside my head,
Inside my head feels as if a parasite spreads,
I know I don’t believe in God,
I just felt he is a fraud,
But I believe in demons,
Cuz I feel my head full of evil demons,
No holy water can treat me,
No mercy can free me,

Watching my loved ones suffer hurts the most,
Everything has ended feels everything is lost,
I don’t wanna earn money,
Nor wanna ever be called honey,
I just want peace and a nail to my coffin,
A life where I can survive without all the morphine,
I m not allowed to die, and cursed to be stabbed by life,
It feels I will get a peaceful sleep in afterlife,

I feel as I m the cursed son like Cain,
All my struggles to be happy has always been in vain,
It feels I m strangled in snakes,
My lover leaves me still can’t handle the heart break,
Miss my folks who stood with me always,
But now I have lived alone for days,

I don’t want money not even happiness
Just want peace and sleep in my grave ending this craziness.
©lucidious_lucifer

It’s hard to find someone of your own
When you’re cursed to be alone
I met him when I was alone and hurt,
He stood with me, loved me from his heart,
He was destined to do great things,
we were together as if twins,
He was happy and fulfilled,
But I was cursed and filled with guilt,

he never did the mistakes which I did,
I knew he would one day have a family with lots of grand kids,
And I m gonna die alone in an old forest cabin,
But I committed a sin – a brother can never commit,
I became jealous to my own brother`s happiness,
Cuz It was long time since I felt contentedness,
I lost the only person, who cared for me,
Now I m alone in a forest cabin with an old bottle of whiskey,

I isolated myself away from him,
I know he still looks up to me but I couldn’t be the one to hurt him,
My touch is cursed as I am,
But he is a great and honourable person, how could I hurt him damn!
I will always be near him just to protect him,
From me and from anyone intended to harm him,
Its dark and my candles are burning out,
My guilt is eating me and I have no words to write about,

It’s past midnight,
I m just writing in my bed light,
Sky looks bright with the clouds lightning,
My 20th birthday ended it was so delighting,
But I know I have reached the end of my deal,
My life is just fading and I can feel,
The death awaits on the door with Lucifer behind,
I made a deal with devil- he is here to remind,

Maybe I should stop writing,
Its all gonna stay behind, who am I kidding?,
I was prepared for this time from long ago,
But I never thought it would be so hard to let go,
I know I m alone in this forest cabin,
Isolating myself from humanity cuz I knew the time was comin’ ,
I just want one last chance to ask forgiveness,
One last chance to complete my unfinished business,

Life doesn’t goes by any rule,
It’s death, no one can fool,
Deal was to save my dad,
So the devil will take his own lad,
Wish I could meet him one more time,
But it’s better so that this pain remains just mine,
I just broke the heart of the girl I love,
Cuz pain is just a simple parasite of love,

Opened up my old creaky kitchen shelf,
Popped open the bottle of clear white mischief,
Burning everything I wrote,
Took a long sip burning my throat,
Stepped out of the door,
Looked at death it felt as I ended a war,
Went with him to the other side of the gates,
It felt like I was meeting one of my old mates,

Sitting all alone in the forest,
no one near me not even my dearest,
moon light reflecting back from the clear river,
still can see the reflection of devil sitting near,
“you bear the curse, you will never be happy”
“the family curse” has always been so classy,
I have the blood so I bear the curse,
death is a blessing, living with it is a curse,

can’t be with the girl I love cuz I m the bearer,
she is the most sweetest thing so I needed to spare her,
the cool breeze touches my face,
reminding me of my mother’s calm face,
I could never become the son she wanted,
just the man who is always haunted,

my old man knows the pain I m facing,
he always knew what I would be facing,
ofcourse he was once the bearer of the curse,
he lays in his bed as the curse gets worse,
death is the last station for this train,
it’s like living the eternity with this pain,

“hold my hand and be free from the pain”,
I turned towards the devil’s eyes but cannot choose that lane,
It’s like floating around in the dark space all alone,
I won’t even have my own grave stone,
descion is made, the devil is gone,
I have to bear this family curse all alone,
calm water, clear sky and the forest smell,
reminds me living this curse doesn’t mean hell,

God I have no one to open now,
You are wrong and I need justice now,
I thought you should be blessing us,
You took all the wrong souls and left us disgusts,
You left all the mothers orphaned,
And all the father’s abandoned,
Took All the brothers who needed blessings,
Left everyone who need to be taught lessons,

Take back all the politicians and give us back all matyrs,
Give us back Irfan take back the Salman who’s sins are larger,
Take back All spoiled rich kids, take back Karan Johar,
Take back Alia I won’t even pray for her,
Take back Sonam take back all fake feminists,
Take back all news reporters they are the real terrorists,
Give us back Kalam, give us back Bose,
Give us back all the good guys who I chose
Gives us back all the people who deserved to live,
Give us back all the people who were too young to leave,

I feel like you are not a god, you are just a fraud,
Sorry I didn’t wanted to disrespect you but where are you Lord?,
Maybe I have no right to tell who stays or dies,
But how can you see when a mother cries,
People wanna debate for depression for more likes,
Take back these social influencers it would be a real prize,
If you are listening then where were you when I cut my wrist,
You saved me just to torture and mutilateme until I do not exist,
Damn I m done with your games take my life,
And give back the Sushant the guy who saved so many lives,
©lucidious_lucifer

Hey slim, I know you are very busy person,
But I write and you are my real inspiration,
I never had money to attend any of your concerts
But your songs were my only friend cuz I m little interovert,
I spend my time about writing the things I like,
Someday I wanna meet you, so lucky Mike,
My household was not so bad unlike you,
But I was sexually assaulted in my childhood,

I know how your mom treated you?
My mom used assault me until I was black and blue,
You lost your uncle, I m really sorry about it,
My dad is sick and we don’t have any money for it,
My girl left me for something I couldn’t afford,
hope someday I can love someone so my life gets restored,
I heard Godzilla the verses were great,
Darkness still goes on and on in my head,

Slim my life is on an edge, but your raps are my only inspiration,
I just have a single dream that I could ever meet you in person,
You never came on a tour to India, maybe rap God nevers sets foot on Earth,
You are a rap Wikipedia, I hope to see you in heaven,
My lines aren’t great doesn’t even deserve a beat,
I always wanted you as my teacher it would be real lit,
I don’t know where do you live and nor to respond to any of my tweets,
So just posting this on insta. I m yours biggest fan Lucifer from Indian streets.

I m happy for you that you’ve moved on,
You should be with someone you can trust on,
Let’s talk about the stuff we could have together,
Let’s talk about the stuff I miss doing together,
You brushing my hair when I used watch movies,
You giggling when I used to be high on roofies,
Making me those breakfasts which I loved having,
Holding my shoulder and shutting me up by kissing,

Supporting my dreams when I got annoyed and gave up,
Taking care when I was sick and always staying up,
I never had anyone to love me so much,
Never had anyone to care about me so much,
Covering me up when I used to be short on cash,
Before you my life was just filled with lots of trash,
Hope you would remember the pizza noons we had,
All the times you stayed and the love we made,

All the goofy videos you made and all the gifts you gave,
But now I don’t have you, just these things that I have,
I was always making you mad, I was always being childish,
While you always loved me and I was being selfish,
I always dreamt of raising our kids,
But now it seems you will be raising someone else’s kids,
I m happy for you that you’ve moved on,
Will always look after you even when I ‘m gone,
©lucidious_lucifer

It was the same as any other day ,
I said I  love u some much babe,
But this time I felt something different in some ways,
I was upset and angry in some ways,

I saw a guys picture on your phone,
It was just one of ur ex on ur phone,
My crazy mind said grab the phone and crash it,
But then I remembered behave  “u crazy shit!!”

Then it was some other  day,
U were on my arms, like any other day,
But all along u were talking about ur best friend,
I was listening all about ur best friend,
Then I thought should I leave you to ur best friend,
But then I thought do be so cheap!!
Just let her sleep,

Then days went by so fast,
And our relationship couldn’t last,
But still I saw traces of her ex,
I wanted to break all of their necks,
But this time I was just quiet,
Sitting on this terrace with on light,
I just had bottle of whiskey ,
And found myself guilty,
I wish I could have ended it soon,
But now I m fine but I m all alone,
It was after long time I felt a little light,
Yup I loved her more than anything in my life, then I stood up tried to control myself,
But the hangover kicked and I control over myself,
I fell,
I was going straight to hell,
But it’s ok as i have been to it,
When I was with her in this shit,
Just wanted to kiss her,
And one last time see her,
But as I touched the ground,
I could feel everything fade around,
I was soaked in blood,
I just thanked God ,
For such a lovely gift,
To let my soul lift