Paranoia

This feeling is alienating me,
I m trapped in it, can`t set free,
I pushed my friends away,
Fear that someday they may betray,
I pushed my brother away,
Because he could have hurt me, I was afraid,
I pushed my family away,
Even though they cared for me every day,

My endless paranoia created a cold, dark room,
I stand there alone with my fears consume,
Trust seems a bright light, impossible to enter,
My pride seems to be this room`s epicenter,
Love seems a feeling too hard to handle,
My fragile mind is too hard to settle,
My actions make me demon in someone else`s life,
While my paranoia roots deep inside my mind,

Every other feeling becomes hazy,
Because I m little too scared lately,
I am a person impossible to love,
Just a person everyone wants to get rid off,
My actions changed everything around me,
A little bit of selfless love can cure me,
A non-judgemental love can now set me free,
From this darkness of endless paranoia that engulfs me,